it has certainly been a long time
i've kind of forgotten about this haha
i went to europe
it was fun...
school's ok...planning to take next year: ap calculus, german 4, physics (yay), t.a., ap english, ap civics/econ. hmmmm worried about math and science.
now to the good stuff.
this angel deal has gotten worse. i tried moving on but he and his ugly pedophiliac girlfriend just doen't go away. seriously though...she's 19...he's 16...kind of gross of her. laaaame, why can't she find someone her own age? it's bad enough i had to watch them makeout in front of me at winter formal, but now they're like everywhere! everything reminds me of him! ahhhh!
soooo i went to a concert march 6th with Joanna and the next day i was super tired. In 2nd period we had a test, so when i was done i put my head down on my desk and after a while i put it up a little and then Angel just handed me a note! at first i didnt know if it was for me or not, haha i kind of looked around like "what?" and then so i opened it and it said "hey tracy. whats wrong? how was the test?" and i was like =O what?!?!?! but i just wrote "im tired, the test was easy." he said "yeah im tired too, i just started my study guides last night. but i feel like i finally passed a test in this class." i said "i havent started the study guides, i was out too late last night. i didnt get home until like one and i got in trouble" (lie lie lie i got home around 12...but it adds mystery!) he asks "where did you go?" i said "a concert." he said "who did you go see?" i said "lola ray..." (since they were like "our" band) he asks "did they play the
song you like?" (w/e he liked it too). i said yes, and that they only played like 5 songs. he asks "who did you go with?" i say "a friend." (deliberately leaving out deatils equals more mystery!!) then i dunno what he said and i was like they finished at 11:15ish...he asks if i did homework before i went and i said no, and then the girl who sits to my right gave me a note
talking about her crazy ex boyfriend, and angel was like tell michelle i said hi...so i did and she told me to tell him "hi loserface" so i did...he was like "that bitch (jokingly)...ahh tracy do your homework!" so i said "dont tell me what to do...its easy anyway i'll do it in 3rd." i didnt mean for it to sound mean, but he didnt say anything back...elizabeth later told me he said he got mad at me for not doing my hw...but later that week i heard he ditched first period because he didnt do his. wtf.
and the next day i wrote elizabeth a letter i guess when she read it, she laughed and he turned around like right away and put his hand out for her to give it to him. and she was like no you cant read it! she said during the flag salute he had one hand over his heart and the other out for her to give it to him. so to get him all nosy she said i go into detail about "this hot indie guy"...hehehe he asked "was this indie guy was hotter than me?!?" she said "duhhh...he's indie!" he said "i can be indie too!"
he doesnt like me liking other guys...but he doesnt want me to like him? HMMM.
and i hate that he made small talk with me. why doesnt he just speak to me like i want him to, not about stupid school but what i want to talk to him about. he knows i have things to say to him, and unless he gives me the chance, i'm going to keep being bitter and miserable. i dont think he deserves to be happy for one thing...after everything he's done, why should he get what he wants? it only shows him he can treat girls this way and get away with it. i've told him im not going to let it go so he can forget about it, like he wants me to. he's just making it worse. but yeah...how can he even be happy when he knows everything i've told him? another reason i believe he does not have any feelings except for "excited" and "horny".
and im fighting with evelyn. i swear she's trying to make me jealous she still talks to him. always talking about him in front of me, saying she hangs out with him, etc., etc.. Whatever we're not friends anymore.
i do not have time for stupid stuff. i have to study for a.p. tests and chemistry! i have a d-!
=O i need a job! i kind of want summer to come but kind of not because it reminds me of angel. boohoo.
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